Monthly Archives: July 2010

Six months ago today…

…I was coming round from surgery and waiting to be taken back to my room.

I was told that I’d be going into Intensive Care after my op, as if they performed the thoracotomy I’d need a lot of looking after as it was such a big op. When I woke up and they told me they couldn’t do it and did a thoracoscopy and took a biopsy instead, well, that’s when I knew.

I knew whatever happened that day would leave scars of either the physical or mental variety. I’d either have a 8 inch scar from the big op, or I’d have a cancer diagnosis, whatever it was, it wasn’t going to be good.

So, six months on and how has my life changed?

Well, my cough has gone. Before I started chemo, I couldn’t get through a sentence without coughing. It was starting to get on everyone else’s nerves, so imagine how it made me feel.

The shoulder pain I was getting has gone.

I can drink alcohol again. It’s been quite nice to be able to have a glass of wine with dinner if I want one. Apparently, the alcohol pain is one of the very rare symptoms of the hodge, yet it was the only one I had up until my cough.

I’ve learnt that even doctors working within the same team cannot agree on certain things.

I have learnt that I really do have some wonderful friends.

It’s certainly not been an easy ride. But the end is in sight now, and I only have two blood tests, one chemo and one PET scan to go until I hopefully hear the words “You are in remission!”


Operation Yummy Mummy

As most of you know, I gave birth to a ridiculously gorgeous baby boy last May. I was in no particular hurry to lose the baby weight, I was a firm believer in the 9 months up, 9 months down. Unfortunately I never made it to the 9 month mark before I got my Hodge diagnosis. It got to the end of 2009, and I decided that the weight wasn’t going to come off on it’s own, so I joined the gym with a friend, and we were going about 3 times a week. Then in the new year I joined Slimming World, and again the weight wasn’t really shifting, I was eating the same things as Neil, and he was losing and I wasn’t. Once I found out something was up with my thyroid, I wondered if that might have something to do with it.

Then I started chemo, and since then I’ve put more weight on. It seems to be the norm with ABVD. You’d think that having to go through chemo would at least have the perk of weight loss, but no. Instead all it does is cause self esteem issues.  But with a wedding to go to in 5 weeks, a wedding that I’m maid of honour for in October, and a holiday in October, I have to shift it somehow!

On Tuesday, my friend and I took the plunge, and we joined Weight Watchers. Now, I don’t know if it’s going to work or not, as we still don’t know what it going on with my thyroid. I can’t remember if I blogged about that or not, I will revisit my posts, and if I haven’t, I shall fill you in.

All I know is that it better work, because I am hungry and miserable! I can’t believe that they class a 60g serving of pasta (uncooked) as a large portion! That doesn’t sit well with me, being Italian an’ all.

So we shall see what happens.

In other news, I had my lung function test on Tuesday, and as we thought, my lungs aren’t working as well as they were before I started chemo (and even then they weren’t great, due to the huge mass that had caused part of my right lung to collapse and not allowing me to get through a sentence without coughing!!) but they aren’t overly worried with the drop.

It was chemo number 10 yesterday, which means I only have 2 to go!