I had my pre-op yesterday for my thyroid surgery which is taking place next week. I was at the hospital for over two hours, saw a nurse and a consultant, and they couldn’t be more different in the answers they gave me to my questions:-
Q – How long before I can look after Jake on my own?
Nurse – 3-4 weeks
Doctor – A few days
Q – How long will I be in hospital?
Nurse – Probably 2 nights
Doctor – Possibly the same day, if not, the day after
Q – How long until I can go to the gym again?
Nurse – About a month
Doctor – Whenever you feel ready, just go easy on things that can stretch my scar
Q – When will my follow up appointment be?
Nurse – 6 weeks after
Doctor – 2 weeks because we are sending your biopsy off as urgent.
Hmmm, so I’m going to go with what the doc said I think.
Starting to feel really nervous. Not about the surgery, but the waiting and the results. I feel like I felt 9 months ago when I was waiting for my chest operation. I knew it was more than a cyst, I knew it was cancer, and I’m getting the same feelings this time. I know I can’t be certain of anything until I get my results, but I’m thinking the worst.
I said to the doctor yesterday: “Realistically, what are we looking at?” He kept using the word suspicious and that we could be dealing with a malignancy, but he’d be very surprised if it was lymphoma related as it didn’t respond to treatment, and again mentioned the 70:30 chance that it would be OK, but the more I think about it, the more I think that those aren’t great odds. Especially since this is me we’re talking about. It was bad enough telling my mum I had one type of cancer, I don’t think I could handle telling her “Well actually, Mum, you know I had Hodgkin’s and I kicked it? Well now I’ve got thyroid cancer too.” Not really sure how she’d cope with that.
The last time I had a pre-op, I cried because of how big and scary the surgery was that I’m having. This time, I managed to wait until the car until I cried, and had a big cry today too.
It goes without saying that when I know, I shall be using the whole social network thing to let you all know!